i feel little panic and stressful

Nothing morealmost in a month i stay at new workplace. yes,cheap oakley sunglasses, i learnt many new knowledge. i graduated from school for 5 years, i once studies traditional Chinese Medicine. however, my present job is forensic, which study of injury or wound, and the cases, accidents that factors cause death. Now i think i am lost way. i am green hand, while, the master blame me much more, he thought i am not good at this work. dear readers, friends i am extrovert. to my closer friends, i am talkative, to new people, i feel little panic and stressful , even be muting, or keep in silence for long period. maybe i am a person which isnt smart. insnt flexible. i dont understand surbordination, i really confused. the master constantly put pressure on me. i have no independent ability, i found i am zero i once was a confident one, but now i feel i am never grow-up,from zero to hero, is a tough journey. while i make my mind naive n idealism. without basic knowledge, no basic practice, how could i be perfect as i am operating, i got, i also had mistake, i am lack of perparation of fundamental medical somethings.my mind go faint. in fact, i steped forward firstly, i am able to overcome the bloodshed situation, i respect the body, and start to operate according to teacher's advice. now i am white paper, but i know i am this personality. unchangeable! really, how i am to be a person could get good chance, and recognized! PS i am sometime emotionalized one, people blamed me, i feel uneasy, and bad temper, i try to correct the bad impression. while, it isnt easliy be natural way.